this question "what is this time of year?"
Christmas is a time of year for me to ponder the year past to think about things that might have gone differently... its a time of year that brings happiness to some yet sadness to others the reasons vary... my happiness stems from the things i have accomplished and knowing that I've help someone... i miss the times of childhood where you have the innocence that nothing could go wrong when it was Christmas time... my dearest friend and once lover always kept me in total happiness around this time of year.... i miss the personal comfort of having him around... but alas t`is no more for he has his own life to live with his wife and child.... but i will always remember the good times we had together... and to you who are on my neighborhood thanks for having me as your friend... wishing everyone a happy holiday season and looking forward into the new year....
until next post....
Nikki
I went on a mini vacation and it was horrible... i thought i was just going to relax and have some quiet time by myself but not the case... the place that i went to was bad had loud and horrid sounds and it smelled like dead bodies everywhere... memo to self never go back... i'm sorry for not posting sooner just been busy with work and this so called vacation... but i'm glad to be back and among the living breathing the wonderful air.... thanks for the invites to you all... talk soon...
until next post
Nikki
what is life? what is this thing we do on a daily bases? questions that i would love to get answers for.... we are born and grow up to adulthood and then get even older and die.... what does life have to offer us? my life seems an endless cycle of redundancy.... i sleep... i awake.... i eat.... i interface with other humans then the cycle starts all over again.... i have emotions to fit the proper reactions when needed... but is there more? is there something that will cause my cycle to be altered? i don't know if you ever thought or even tried to think this way but it so good to question things in life.... and these questions have collected in my mind for a long time now and i just want to know they mean.... i hope that i haven't bored you to death with this post but i felt that i needed to speak out on this... give me a comment on your version or something like that...
until next post....
Nikki
well i'm back again with something.... i just had my friend to call me and he was like all sad and down because of some issues in his present life and he told me that he is scared that he is losing his grip on the situation.... i told him to just relax and take a breath of fresh air "meaning go for a walk and think about something else" he promised that he'll do it... i'm am not sure that he'll do it but i've tried to help... thats a problem now days the person that is having trouble never seems to ask for help from a close friend.... i mean it's like they are happy to get stressed and crabby.... but you know it's more than me offering help it's just that they need to learn to break down and ask for it.... they need to realise that they are in a tight spot and need some help getting out of it... anyways i told him that i loved him and would be saying a silent prayer for him so he will overcome his situation... i had to share this or it would bother me and make me sad....
so untl next post (hope not this soon)
Nikki
hi... =) just felt like doing that i know that its been a few days since posting... i was thinking about how life is developing in our society and how everyone has their own little nitch.... i mean they have soo much going on that they don't really know how to take a real breather and slow down... i try to not make a habit of making things more important than relaxing and calming myself down... i hope that i am making sense here because i have learnt that the more you over do something you end up losing your main objective and goal that you had set forth.... i don't usually post about this concept because its not something that goes over easy with other people.... when there comes a time in your life that makes you realise that there is more to it than gain of possesions or fame or even money it is better to take a step back and rethink the whole concept that you had in the beginning.... i felt that i need to post this because there might be a reason for it who knows but i do hope that you'll make a change in how you look at life and make the best of what you have in the present... until next post...
Nikki
I hope that you have a wonderful day on this day of your birth... i wished that I could spend it with you... but life goes on and each to their own priorities... wishing you the best day of your life.....
Nikki
well i just got off the phone with my friend.... it was like he bitched me out for making a show in the irc and i told him that i was just playing with him but..... it turns out that he has been under a lot of stress lately and legal stuff is happening to him so he is on edge with life in general.... i just want to openly and publicly apologize to him here and say hang in there its going to work and you'll be just fine and back to normal self.... wishing you the best...
Nikki
i was just looking at a post that someone who is in my vox neighborhood wrote about not keeping a promise to a girl...
well its true the guy should have never made the promise in the first place if he knows that he isn't going to be keeping it... i know this first hand because i was let down many times by different guys that i came across in my life and my opinion about them isn't very high because it becomes habit for them to constantly make empty promises... i hope that what i'm saying isn't hurtful but it is true... and that is my say for now i'll be posting more real soon but no promise on how soon so thanks for stopping by and thanks....
Nikki
